a ray of sunshine in a deep well

And I, find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche
Nothing compares to this love, love, love
- “Like An Avalanche”, Hillsong United

“Satisfy me, Lord, oh
Satisfy me, Lord, oh
I’m begging You, help me see
You’re all I want, You’re what I need
Oh satisfy me, Lord” 

- Satisfy, by Tenth Avenue North

Recently, I’ve been feeling rather down.  Perhaps it’s because of the end of daylight savings that brought about the dark much earlier in the day.  Perhaps it’s the gloomy, cloudy, rain that we’ve been having recently that brings no hope of the sun or hot humidity (miss the Philippines much?).  Perhaps it’s the fact that I still feel like I’m still in a place of IN-BETWEEN and jealously feel like I truly belong back in the OC with my friends. 

Today for church, the pastor talked about ENVY.  He went through a lot of great points, but I think the one that struck out to me most was when he said that when we were envious it was treason against God. He went on to explain that the root of it all was that we are not satisfied with what we have in Christ. I didn’t think much of it, until I was talking to MJ about how excessively sad I felt and he reminded me of the sermon, by proclaiming that I was being envious and not satisfied with where God’s placed me for now. (bah, it’s like I was punched in the face)

Anyway, I share this song to you who still keep up with my sporadic posts and pictures because it was one of the first songs that played thanks to the magic of shuffle.